Midori's Midnight Sessions

An unexpected guest appears in her church that would trigger a yearning for community, and grief for the years she missed.

When Midori's idea of a surprise gift gets shut down, she reflects on how the world never seemed to really consider her happiness and the yearning for a life where she's well-cared for.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide]

Midori gives an update of what happened in the past two weeks, including a pastor who made her feel seen, an odd connection with another about repressing their vulnerability, and a prayer often incanted but has become a lifeline for a wounded heart.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of sexual abuse]

When Midori acquires a workbook on sexual abuse, she discovers the unfinished writings of its previous owner and the way she honored her, as well as share her sentiments about her church's apparent romanticization of trials in life.

Midori explains her deliberate schemes to protect her anonymity and her silence.

Midori retells the honest conversation between her and her spiritual mentor that brought back a memory she would rather keep silent about.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide]

Midori reflects on the existence of suffering and the question that has been plaguing her in the past few months.

A poignant conversation and a realization gone wrong makes Midori reflect on the challenge—and regret—of speaking up.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of sexual abuse]

As Midori reintegrates back to her old church, a remark from somebody in her support group leaves her questioning testimonies about her story.

Midori goes to an event where she catches up with old friendships.

Midori opens up about how her diagnosis has impacted her.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide]

Midori opens up about an apology from her professor that's been long overdue and the referral letter she got from her therapist.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide]

Midori comments on a shocking confession exposing her department's increasingly problematic behavior, and a comment under it that made her wonder about the privilege of validation.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide]

Midori's therapy session goes awry when instead of an apology, she receives a referral to the psychiatric ward.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide and sexual abuse] A simple closing of the door to her therapist's office and a distressing dream lead to an emotional spiral that causes a rupture in their relationship.

Midori talks about her visit to the dean of her college and the potential fallout she might face now that she has decided to speak out and address something that's been on her mind for nearly a year.

Midori does the post-mortem of this year's journalism seminar, including one speaker's sweet gesture that defined her experience.

Midori shares her fears as her first journalism seminar back as an attendee looms, including an impending panic attack and standing in front of her home crowd for the first time since she began therapy for her mental health problems.

Midori expresses her desire to unlock the memories and emotions of her inner child while navigating the complex terrain of her new technical critic.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of suicide and sexual abuse]

Midori reports a stunning update regarding her thesis and how she came close to taking her own life for the first time in years.

Midori reveals her diagnosis for the first time and her reflections on therapy.

Midori recounts the wild ride of the past few days, including an unexpected encounter and her first therapy session in two years.

Midori shares her fears about her first therapy session in two years.

Midori lets in on a conversation with her thesis adviser about the state of her thesis writing, and how the interview has changed her since then.

Midori has always had work cut out for her, so when people she admires sees her in a way her peers never did, she is left questioning her capabilities to become a full-fledged journalist.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of sexual assault]

In the aftermath of the interview that changed the course of her thesis, Midori reflects on the things that she feels guilty about.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Contains mentions of sexual assault]What was just an interview for her thesis becomes the gateway for the most fragile tell-all of Midori's life yet.

As the bitter year ends, Midori accepts that maybe it isn't time for some things just yet.

When her registration adviser notifies her of the deadline for the application for graduation, Midori airs out her frustrations about the stagnant state of her thesis.

Midori goes personal about the complicated process of healing.

[TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of sexual assault]

Midori goes into deeply personal territory as she describes the arduous juxtaposition of writing a thesis and healing from her sexual assault two years after writing the article that changed her life.

As Midori finds out who is going to replace her two panelists and technical critic, she also grapples with the dreading thought of being vulnerable about the real reasons behind her thesis.

Midori celebrates the birthday of her best friend through recounting how they met.

Midori reflects on a key event that she made peace with during the graduation season.

Midori shares her thoughts on what looms in the horizon as a new school year begins, and a painful realization about the friendship she once treasured.

As the new school year looms in the horizon, Midori questions her decision to continue doing her thesis and the impact of the events of the past few weeks.

Midori gets candid about the state of her thesis and how a seemingly meek statement has made her feel lately.

Dismissive remarks send Midori into a battle she has been fighting by herself for a while.

Midori draws from her own experiences as she talks about the dangers toxic positivity could pose to someone's mindset and morale.

Midori expresses her feelings about the fallout and how much loss she had to endure over the course of her later college life.

The turmoil of the past few months begins to get to Midori when she has a falling out with her best friend.

Midori goes on a rant about her crises lately-her thesis situation, a job offer, and the fallout with her best friend.

The fallout of a broken friendship still hangs over Midori as she recounts her memories on the corridor of her department's faculty room.

Midori recounts the story of the performance of a lifetime in this magical season premiere.

Roughly a month after the highly anticipated annual journalism seminar took place, Midori details her personal experience of the behind-the-scenes craziness of being part of the organizing team of the seminar historic for its short preparation time, in addition to an encounter that gives her an important realization as she marks her fifth year as a singer-songwriter.

A devastating loss rocks Midori's world, and she is left wondering about the circumstances of how it happened in this Midori's Midnight Sessions special episode.

One trip to school for a quick errand takes an already wretched Midori to an important realization in the heartbreaking second season finale.

On the first anniversary of all these songs' release, Midori looks back on the whirlwind of events that led to her acclaimed sophomore album.

As the turbulence of her final semester in college begins, an assignment leaves Midori wondering what truly makes a community.

The chaos of the past few months has been taking a toll on Midori, so she talks about the multiple times she ended up on the news during her internship days, and the craziness of it all.

The past few months has left Midori feeling at her most depressive and vulnerable time yet, and now she struggles to ask for help from her thesis adviser. What advice does she give listeners who are in the same situation?

A comment from one of Midori's professors fires her up as she continues on her thesis writing journey, but not while recounting a moment where her best friend lives up to one of the nicknames she bestowed upon him: manifesting king.

With her final semester in college about to begin, Midori talks about the way she has been coping with her best friend's loss for the past few months. The irony is: He's still alive, but he has his own dreams to chase.

Midori details two major life decisions she had to make, one that made her see her worth, and the other because of the reality she is struggling to come to terms with.

Midori shares her thoughts about the loss of her best friend and how she is coming to terms with it in the most emotional episode of the podcast yet.

With Midori's many tasks and hobbies beginning to pile up, she now questions her life after graduation. What path is waiting for her beyond school?

For the first time in Midori's Midnight Sessions history, Midori gets emotional talking about the grief of losing a dear friend and the reality that looms over her in the year ahead.

Midori details how important it is to recognize the journey one took thanks to an article about the making of her new album in this week's episode.

Their friendship was built on a promise, and now as that begins to unravel itself, Midori realizes her time is coming up. She talks about an event that her professor friend has been bringing up lately and her thoughts about it.

There are times when we think we are going astray, or we aren't making much progress. Midori is here to remind you you are doing just fine, with a few experiences (and a little bit of bragging) splashed into the spotlight.

For the first time in two years, Midori is back to talk about the special circumstances surrounding her thesis and the feelings she had been keeping in long after her adviser gave her up in the second season premiere of Midori's Midnight Sessions.